She was looking kind of dumb with her finger & her thumb in the shape of an "L" on her forehead.

I applied to nursing school this year, which was a concept that terrified me for several reasons:

• I've been out of high school for almost 10 years, & I've never taken any college courses.
• It's a big life/career change.
• The program I desperately wanted to attend is very competitive, & my math grades weren't always the best.

Although I'm confident that I can do the math requred to be a nurse, my poor math history is preventing me from getting that  chance.  I got a letter from that school today, & they can't even allow me to take the pre-admission testing because of my math grades in high school.

It doesn't necessarily mean I'll never get into that school, but it does mean I'll have to delay it for at least another year - probably more.

I knew this was a very distinct possibility all along, but I still held out hope because I'm a non-traditional student & virtually no one applies to the part-time program.  But, no exception was to be made.

Sigh.

Here's where I get all "after school special" on everyone:  this whole situation was avoidable.  I'll be honest, when I was in high school nursing wasn't my plan.  I wanted desperately to go to a four year college & major in art history.  That being said, I didn't take math & science classes as seriously as I should have.  But, life sometimes happens, & art history was not meant to be...& here I am, held back by my former self - who I would like to kick right now.

And so it's time for plan B - in theory, but truth be told, I can't assume I'll get accepted to plan B.  So while Plan B is the plan, plans C-E are currently also in development.